For those of you who don't know yet, we are expecting Baby #5!!! We are very excited! I get this question a lot, "Was it on purpose?"
So here is the very much on purpose story behind the reason we are adding another monkey to the zoo.
After Malia's very hard, and somewhat traumatizing birth I knew that I didn't want to have any more babies...or I guess I should say,I really really didn't want to have any more babies. We actually came close to tying up the ol' tubes. But when Malia was about 1 I started hearing a little voice in my head (no, not that kind of voice...some would call it the spirit). I did EVERYTHING in my power to quiet the voice. I didn't want to have another baby! I was perfectly happy with my 4 beautiful angels.
Then, one day, comes Tyler, "Mommy? (with tears in his eyes) I really need a brother!" He would come up to me at random times for months and ask when his brother was coming, he would show me where his brother could put his toys when he got here, and where his brother could sleep. It was a combination of this and that little voice in my head that allowed me to finally start considering if we truly had our whole family here.
I waited a while before telling James that I thought we needed to have one more. I couldn't believe it myself still and I knew he would be shocked. But because I have such a wonderful husband, who is close to the spirit and loves me so much, he agreed that we weren't quite done yet.
I still can't believe that I am almost done with the 1st trimester of my 5th pregnancy and that there is an actual life inside of me again. I feel so blessed that Heavenly Father trusts us enough to share another little angel with us.
I have had 2 DR. visits already and we have seen the baby and his/her strong little heart beat. It is amazing! We have talked about the fact quite frequently with Tyler that it may not be a brother but he so eloquently put my worries to rest when he said, "It's okay if I get another sister, Mom, I really like my sisters."
Besides the fact that I am sick 24/7... things are going really good. The kids love school (Tyler actually said that he loved school yesterday!) Amazing! Baily and Malia keep me hopping and James' job is doing great. Some really good news is that the 3 older kids were accepted into a new charter school that is coming this fall to North Ogden. (Yes- my Baily is going to be a kindergartner!) It is a Montessori Academy. The Montessori teaching method is a more hands on method where the kids are learning by using tangible things, instead of text books and worksheets. I am very excited about this, especially since I have been trying to get them into a charter school for 3 years now!
I said at the end of 2009 in a past post that I could feel that 2010 was going to be a great year, and it has been. I feel so blessed, happy and fortunate. Keep me in your prayers, and I will let you all know as soon as we know if Tyler will get his brother, or if I will be doing 4 girls hair everyday =)